My ex called me today. We recently broke up (about a month ago) and it was really hard hearing his voice. He said he was just calling because he was thinking about me. He mentioned Valentines Day, but I was too busy internally arguing with my mind and heart, debating on weather I should hang up now, or throw myself into the flames and break down. Even having someone new that I am genuinely intrested in, he still gets to me. It's almost like my heart and I are speaking different languages and we can't seem to communicate properly to let each other know that it's time to move on. I'm over him, and I know that, but there are some things I can't seem to tune into myself and refrain from letting it effect me. It was really ironic when he called, I was listening to this song (play video) and I kind of just told him everything thats in the song. It's easier to let go if I don't hear from him. I can deal and move on so much better if he dosen't pop up on random days. I don't need to care, nor do I about what he is doing (or who he is doing) I erased all the pics I had of him and us. I deleted every number I had on him. I erased him from myspace, facebook, ect. I have to let go. I need to move on, so it's Over.
4 Love Notes:
Sometimes its better to left things broken than hurting yourself trying to put the pieces back together.
You'll eventually move on.
He won't get to you that easily.
I love that song by Jesse McCartney.
I'm a firm believer of when it's an official break up to just leave it at that cease further contact. When my ex and I broke up we had our son so we couldn't do that. But if he wasn't a factor I probably would have moved away somewhere I would never run into her at all. LoL.
Steph - Thats why I am so good to you, lol. Cause you're great. I'm leaving things where they lay. I don't need any fresh wounds from trying to fix the past.
Rai - Thanks mama, He won't I know. I won;t let him. (I love the song too) =]
Bro - I have a son and the crazy thing is, it was easier to move on from his dad. This ex is who I was with right after though. So the "family" bond we all feel is harder to let go of, I guess. I'm working on it though. I can't make something work that refuses to be fixed. I have to be happy first.
Thanks you guys.
xo.
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